So this entry was a little late, but today is the day of Hedonism, so I’m fucking going to enjoy myself, which does not include blogging.
I defined Productivity for my purposes as to produce as many tangible, finished items as possible. This didn’t happen, but I felt that it did. Starting at 7:30, I had alot of momentum coming out of bed and through the day, but, around 3 pm, my resolve started to wane. I wasn’t allowing any downtime for myself. Finally, nearly having my lab finished it all broke down and I became screwing around. Nothing happened for a long time, it sucked.
As drastic as that sounded, it really wasn’t generally, my days doesn’t change. Life isn’t a movie, unfortunately, so I didn’t cure cancer or anything yesterday. The day of productivity wasn’t as inneffectual as the day of impulsivity, but it still drags. This experiment isn’t being as successful as I had hoped.
Today is the day of Hedonism, which isn’t being as hedonism as I hoped (no grapes being fed to me by nude women). Most of this stems from my confusion over the definition: Is it hedonistic in the moment? or hedonistic in the long-term? I am fine doing both, and the latter is simply calculated selfishness. The definition from the Merriam-Webster Dictionary is: “Hedonism: The doctrine that pleasure is the chief good is like.” Man, hedonism gets knocked alot, mostly because people have a narrow view of what pleasure is. It’s not all fucking and massages (I haven’t had a massage yet, but I came shortly after midnight, putting today off to a good start. No, not alone!) Please can be riding bikes, doing something productive, eating or whatever – whatever makes you feel good.
Okay – this entry is starting to drag so I’m off to pursure more pleasure.